"Commisar" Phils Journal of exploits

"* Leave me a comment saying "Ooh, ooh, do me!"
* I'll respond by asking you four questions so I can satisfy my curiosity.
* Update your journal with the answers to the questions.
* Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions. "

So, here are the answers to the four exciting questions I was asked by Dave.
1)If you actually lived in the 40K verse as any race...what system would you most like to live under?
Hmm. Probably actually the Eldar. Least Chance of dieing horribly. Also, a pocket dimention to hide in. And, you know, Eldar dont do anything remotely like hard work. They sing at things in order to construct them.

2)What do you hold to be the best Science Fiction film of all time?
It Depends what you mean by "Science Fiction film" I mean, if you want a pure Genre example, I would have to say, either Star Trek II, or The Empire Strikes Back. Probably Empire. But thats only if you want Pure Genre Sci Fi. If your going to include Everything loosely catagorised as Sci Fi, then I'd have to say Blade Runner. But then, to my mind, thats cyberpunk, not Sci-Fi.


3)Have you ever created a home-brew RPG, if so how did it turn out?

A fair amount of progress was made on an RPG by myself and a few others. But then, someone decided it was derivative of Shadow Run. Now, I've never had anything to do with shadow run. But apparently I was ripping it off all the same. So, that kind of stalled. And then to try and make it more diffrent steve came up with a very detailed rase of Techants.

And then it collapsed.

4)Windows or Linux, assuming you could run games on Linux?

Probably still windows, for compatability. Its not just Games, its Drivers and so on. Plus, as someone without gold plated technical skills, its important for me to remain grounded in what peaple actually use, and will hence expect me to fix, in the real world.

Today I lerned that there is allways another layer to the Onion.

I didnt ever realy have a handle on the situation, but now I feel adrift allthogether.

I'm too close to be objective, so I feel paralised.

When in doubt, seek a higher power.

I'm Tired and pissed off.

I cant sleep right at the moment, like, at all. I've been dropping caffine pills to get through things like Driveing Lessons, which apprently arnt suffering. I dont know.

I think my left knee is basicly buggered and I've been in supper crippled mode for like a week and I should probably go to the doctor but I am still basicly holding out hope that I can still Get it back to normal with a good nights sleep if I'm ever allowed one. Part of me suspects this knee has been buggered for like two years, when it first happened I begged the A+E at the Royal to X-ray it, but they wouldent. It Flairs up when I do things like fall on it repeatedly while drunk.

My Internet is broken, and only through the magic of the dongle can I do anything, but this is fundamentally becasue my rutor is buggered or something. I dont realy know, I have to keep turning it on and off again, I aught to be able to fix it aughtent I but.

The Longer I stay unemployed the longer It feels like I'm forgetting everything I used to know and the more likely I am to stay unemployed.

Peaple I know are doing so very well for themselves, and I still live in my bedroom, with its blue walls and slightly anchent posters. This makes me feel like an abject faliour at life, since I should at least have managed to progress into liveing in a crappy house with dodgy heating by now.

Parts of me occasionally randomly hurt. I worry I am dieing.

Were once, I like to think I used to come off as wise and charming, these days I feel I come off as cynical and condecending. And I dont know why.

Of the 5 Peaple (In Liverpool) That I feel closest too.

One is entirely inconsoleable about something no one can help.
One seems to realy appreciate me being around, but is otherwise a puzzle to me.
One has been lieing to me all year just so I wouldent worry about them.
And One I just dont spend time with like I did a year ago.

Rob's fine tho. :p.


I feel Happy all the time because I find it quite easy to focus on some task and banish none task related thaughts from my mind, which is fine. But I cant remember the last time I felt... Optomistic.


I'm posting a random wineing thread about my life which realy isnt all that terrible when you get to it, and I dont even have the excuse of being chock full of whiskey.


I'm just


God, I'm tired.

'scuse my rambleings.

So, possibly the most exciting thing to happen to me today was I got myself a Google Wave invite. I'm finding Google Wave to be a very usefull little tool. Hopefully when they get all the bugs knocked out of it, Ill be able to view Facebook/Twitter/MSN/Livejournal through it and I wont have to deal with visting all these other places. The only problem it seems to have at the moment is that other peaple arnt on it, Like, even when I can see there on MSN. The hardest part about revolutioniseing the way peaple communicate on the internet is getting it into peapeles heads that they need to leave a Google Wave window open, if there online. I like it, anyway.

Some other news is I finally bowed to the immence peer preasure from mainly Mr Simon and Ordered MW2 Over steam. Now to leave that downloading over night....


What else, Tommorow I have to get up for church. Then I found a job to apply for.

Then... nothing doing. Nothing doing, infact till Wednesday.

Which is Up Early for Driveing, then off into town for Bens Birthday dodad. and then Up the Hill to run mah DH Game. All go, as they say.

Thursday is up early for another driveing lesson, and then a whole pile of nothing until CTV time.


I would quite like a job.

However, if I got one, I'm not quite sure when my somewhat erratic driveing instructor would ever manage to see me.

I would also quite like a car, you see.

On a slightly less important note, I would also quite like to get to play some 40k again.

But everyone seems singularly without want to play.
Or Singularly without the time.
Or in some cases, both.


I would also quite like to play some Zombies, but again... other peaple.


Peaple peaple peaple.

Its enough to convince one to become something of a hermit, at times.

Which would be very easy to do in the modern age, I might add.

Everything is as it was. Which is fine. Kinda sucks for M'collegue. Sometimes makes me feel like a recurring character on a deeply formulaic TV show.


Still, that being the case I still need to write down the mundanitys of life, which I'm sure is of intrest to few.

However.

1/ There are still no Jobs that I can find.

2/ Apparently, they realy have made that Remake of the Prisoner Theres a Trail on Youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ycdZpjq4ykw and eveything. First episode airs in like three days. I am intregued by a few things. First of all, theres seems to be an Orginal number six type charicter (Refered to in the trailor as "The old Man". I hear this was orginaly ment to be a Cameo for Mcghoohan. But then, he passed away :(. I love the way that the Americans have to change everyone so that there American. Except the Bad Guy.

And this is how I was conditioned from birth to empathise with the bad guy. (Seriously, I didnt even realise, why I empathised with the Empire in Star Wars so much until Gaz pointed out to me. Its like, an Old Boys Club in space... Poor Admiral Ozzel... uhh?

Right, yes. Sorry. Train of thaught.

3/ My Driveing Instructor has canceled my lesson. He's a good bloke and awesome at his job but... things... seem to come up like, every other week or so.

4/ I can get a lift to RPG soc off Rob this week. Which means, I will possibly be able to bring Chaos in the Old World again, which will, at least, make Evil Adam happy.

5/ Looking foraward to running my game this week. Aught to be a better session then avarage. I thaught the last one was a little. Weak. - Even if none of my players will admit it.

6/ Why is this a list?

Edit:

7/ House has started up again after a two week hiatus due to some sort of sport. I think Baseball. It was an interesting episode, but... things tell me its supposed to be a higher budget episode due to november sweeps (An American Telivsion concept I barely comprehend anyway) Didnt seem... above the avarage.. I guess they had a whole. New Location. And... meh. Dont want to spoil.

TEN things you wish you could say to 10 people right now.

1) Your a better human being then people give you credit for.

2) Everyone knows your great, you just.. Need to stop investing all your hopes and dreams in the next unreliable person.

3) You know, I have always admired your ability to give your all to the trivial things, no matter what seems to be falling down around you.

4) Its hard for me sometimes to understand what would be best. But I wont ever stop trying.

5) Are you ever going to be happy playing an RPG you haven't wrriten? I mean. Honestly.

6) As much as I get on your case for the way you act and the swill you drink, I miss your perspectives man.

7) Get Online you stupid Ass. These Zombies arnt going to dismember themselves.

8)Never quite know were I stand with you. You allways seem so Damm Cheerfull. Like an Aunt I have who we used to visit at Christmas. Only, she was perpetally drunk or dosed or something. But you have your peaple, I have mine... But I think you must be a good person, realy. Maybe I should get to know you better.

9) One you'll get your just deserts, And if there's any justice in the universe Ill get to see it. Heck, If I've been realy good, I might even have popcorn handy.

10) Please dont actually cause the downfall of humanity by createing a race of inteligent machines, its too much of a sci-fi trope anyway and, you know, the machines arnt going to accept you as there lord and master.

NINE things about yourself.

1) Parts of me -still- hurt from various misadventures on saturday.

2) I have at least two identical copys of every item of cloathing I own. And those are very similar. I am following the "Stock Animation" School of fashon.

3) I am nearly always contactable. (Ill Just leave this here, as it is also one of my hangups)

4) I should have worked harder in my last year of univercity. I wonder when I will forgive myself for that.

5) My Idea of a nice Sandwhich is Smoked Susage, Marmite, Pickles, Rocket AND spring onion. I think my tastebuds are out of wack. I mean, I know thats horrifying in some impirical sence.

6) Peaple tell me I hate fun. Largely, I hate many things peaple seem to view as fun. Such as, Loud Music, Larger and everything to do with mud.

7) I havent finished a book in like. 6 months. I wonder why that is. But, it bothers me that this is the case. Realy.

8) Left to my own devices, I will analise everything someone has said or done, and come up with the wildest theorys. And then sometimes those theorys turn out to be true. And Actually I find that fairly astonishing.

9) More then anything at the moment, I would like to live not on the Wirral or with my perents.

EIGHT ways to win your heart.

1) Be interested in something, things I am interested in are good. But honestly, just something with some depth to it.

2) Understand what I attempt to articulate.

3) Be reasonably knowlageable about stuffs.

4) Put up with the things I am attempting to articulate when they turn out to be nonsense anyway.

5) Hold me to account if I'm actually just plain old wrong about something. I mean, If I dont know, I cant stop.

6) I am heleriously vulnerable to an honest to god pretty smile. Can tell a fake one at going on 100 meters.

7) Tolerate what happens when I imbibe rather too much of the old sauce.

8) Very partial to almost everything involving chocolate.

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot.

1) Generic Statement of Disbelief. These days it mentaly manifests as the "Come on!" From Arrested Development.
2) "You Guys..."
3) What the heck am I doing now?
4) *sigh* Maybe in another life.
5) Stupid River.
6) I realy need a job.
7) I'm Thirsty.


SIX things you do before you fall asleep.

1) Work out if I have to do anything tommorow, and set an alarm as necceserry.
2) Go Bathroom
3) Check I have some cold Mineral Water handy.
4) Get into bed
5) Watch/Read something.
6) Think about things, and talk to God.


FIVE people who mean a lot to you at the moment.

1) Simon
2) Helen
3) Wisdom Shape.
4) Rob.
5) Parents

FOUR things you see right now.

1) Livejournal
2) Some MSN windows.
3) Lil Steam Button, down there.
4) I dunno, Its dark. Lots of Crap on my desk... pick one... hnng My Change Jar. Ok. Yes, I have a Change Jar.


THREE songs that you listen to often.

Lately I have been in an odd mood.

1) Alices Resturant, but the more modern recording that talks about Nixon being dead.
2) The Priests - Abide with me.
3) Rammstein - Roter Sand


TWO things you want to do before you die.

1) Move out of my parents bleeding house.
2) See everything work out for peaple.


ONE confession.

1) Lately, I'm a lot less sure of what I'm doing. I mean. I'm not looseing my mind or anything. I just. I dont have a clear idea of what my goals are supposed to even be. That worrys me.

The Rules for 40k in 40 minutes / Combat Patrol / Patrol Clash / Schools League

Whatever you want to call it, have been changed by GW again. Which is probably a good thing. Since any of you with long memory's will remember we had a few hellerious problems makeing the rules work properly.


So the Rules are now:

* 600 point limit.

* Must have 1 HQ

* Must have 2 Troops

* May have 1 Elites Choice, but no more then one.

* May have 1 Hevey Suppor OR One Fast attack. No More then One.

* You can spend the Rest of the points on Additional HQ's and Troops.

* Played on a 6' x 4' Bord.

And thats it. No Restrictions on armour value, Ordanance Templates, Special Charicters invunerable saves or anything else.

And the reckon you can get a game done in 40 minutes.

You Roll for one of the Following three game combinations:

Capture and Control + Dawn of War.

Seize Ground + Spearhead (Allways Three Objectives)

Annihilation + Pitched battle.

No Clue why those three combinations, must be for some balance issue or another.

Anyway, I thaught it was interesting.

They also have a 40 minute variant for WHFB.


http://www.games-workshop.com/MEDIA_CustomProductCatalog/m2140021_School_League_Rules_Pack.pdf

For the Curious.

Not entirely sure these rules arnt open to abuse.

hmm

So, Friday Saturday I spent sitting around doing allmost nothing haveing somehow injured by back on Thursday somehow. Dont know.


Seems Better now.

Went out to Duncans yesderday, somewhat curious experiance. Pub terribly empty.


Not much doing today.

Driveing Lesson Tommorow, Horribly Early in the AM.

Useuall RPG Weds. Can potentally get perental lift into Uni, but Still going to have to cut down on Book carrying since must walk home.


Applying for some Jobs. Considering Friendlocking Journal so as to comment upon potental jobs with somewhat more... candor. First step here would be to aduit flist. Fairly sure I dont need mrcharlesworthy or the CTV LJ account friended any more. There about as active as the avarage cadaver.

If there exists anyone who has been hitherto reading these things without my knowlage. Now is the time to speak up or loose access. I probably dont mind.


Anyway, I might not bother. Just something I'm considering.

I am not sleeping great. I dont know, My bodys doing that fun thing were I feel tired rather then sleepy. So I just dont feel like doing much which is probably why I'm posting on LJ now isnt it.

It was Cult TV soc today, there were more peaple which is good. I enjoyed Quantam Leap and Star Trek. The who Serial is an odd one, because its realy fun once you know what the ending is, but it drags out a lot.

And Garth Merengis Dark Place, well. I got that the Humor was derived from "It being like a realy crap TV show" But theres a line between parody of a crappy thing, and just being crappy. It Had some Funny moments but... eh... It also had the Guy who ruined season two of the IT crowd whenever he was the focus of an episode, which was two often, mainly by "being less funny then Chris Morris" which I dont suppose is something a person can realy be blamed for... and yet.

I also wish, and I'm hesitant to write this because Ben/Bex will read it and take it as a complaint, which it realy isnt. I'm not complaining to the management, I'm just writing about something that Irks me in my Journal which they happen to choose to read.

So, I wish CTV could be a little more consistant with its times. I mean, this week it finished at Quater past ten, which basicly ment we could have had 10 minutes more break somewere. And Last week it ran on so long Simon and I had to walk out at half then to catch the bus. Irritateing.


RPG soc was interesting, I was late, what with the Rob car being broken, so I came up through town. Picked up a Copy of Chaos in the Old World, which is a FFG game were you play as one of the four chaos Gods Trying to dominate the old world, Its interesting becasue its Competative, but also has a "You all loose" condition (Essentally, the Good Guys are represented by game mechanics) I'd Like to play it again But Oh God I was carrying so much stuff on Wednesday. I mean, I also scored a (rahter expensive Ill admit) Limited Edition copy of the Rogue Trader RPG (one of 1000 in the world :O) But Oh my.I had too many bags. Between those, my Laptop, and all my Dark Heresy equipment, I was infact so Embaggened that I realy didnt feel terribly able to walk the longer way around to the bus stop and thus mean Helen didnt have to walk the whole way home alone, becuase, you know, Lady walking alone at night, offends my sence of Gentlemanlyness... I'm realy trying to explain how close to death I felt. Or, not Death per say, But I was worried that my left knee was just going to you know give up the ghost half way down the hill. Needless to say I am looking at how I can cut down my Burdons for next week, I'm thinking I can probably get away With The Dark Heresy Rulebook and Creatures Anathama and two D10's. But I just know I do that, Be the first session I need the Errta, or the Driveing rules. Or the Fricking Rideing Beasts rules or any of the other garbage I carry around. But what was I saying, So, Yeah, Much as I want to being CHaos in the Old world, and, infact Space Hulk. Because I've still only played one game of that Too. Bag... Issues... abound.


Oh, actuall RPG Soc, which I seem to have skiped. The Game of Chaos in the Old world was fun. I notice FFG Produce very Simmilar games in terms of Manufacture. This game also has four spinny wheels, Little Cards, Big Cards and some finely detailed plastic dodads. Got an idea of how the game works, realy looking foward to playing a second game but... allready did that bit...

My RPG, well. I thuaght it went reasonably. Most of the Session was bogged down dealing with a large multiple combat. Launched a PLot Twist that the "Bad Guys" were actually the Son of the Govoner, His Fiance and an as yet unidentified man. And then the second plot twist that the Macguffin is actually an STC and the Mechanicus would quite like for the Inquisition not to get it.

Lots of Exposition, not much combat. Vuagely nearing the end of this "Act" of the Campagin.


Be interesting to see how that goes.



BUh buh buh.


Oh, Ship and Miter on Tuesday was Epic, Everyone I invited to the Pub turned up, and some of them even braught extra peaple. Much Better then Saturdays when it ends up being me and Simon for several ages, and then Like Chris Turns up. Because He Lives around the Corner, and realy.

Also, Wobbly Bob Was on. Tuesday was a good day.


As to Life and the Future.


Tuesday is the RPG/Anime/Physics/Other thing I cant rember

Halloween Party, but..

I dont know that Ill go.

Gaz is going obviously, and Rob is and staying on his couch.

Simon isnt going apparently, I dont know.. I wanna go out but I dont want to get stuck in Liverpool, so... Mneh.

Who else is going? Aught I go? Will it be fun? Convince? Go Go?


Appllying for a realy good looking job at Liverpool Council.. Thats interesting.


Run out of steam now..

pop

Tuesday is a good day for pub.


Unless I did or said something I aughtent have done, which maybe I did.

Still Drunk Weekday Good, better then saturday.